Back to waiting again. Being unemployed for nearly 2 months now, many things don’t surprise me. But, I am surprised that there hasn’t been any surprises. Meaning: I wasn’t expecting to be down this long without any kind of a job. I’ve had places deny me because I was over qualified and they refused to pay me more for the position because of it. I was dumbfounded, and said I’d take the entry level payment. The answer was a clear “no.” Although I’ve had a run of about an interview per week; still nothing has materialized into any sort of an offer. That’s very discouraging. I remember back to the last time I was unemployed and it took about 2 months before I ended up working part time. Cross our fingers, but 2 months is about up come next week. And while I can probably hold out another month; things start getting uncomfortable for me come the end of August. I’ll have to start making some quick decisions about major expenses I wont be able to afford… like my car, like my mortgage. I’m holding on to my dog as long as I can, but I recognize even he is expensive in his own way; and should we hit DEFCON III, and I’m forced to move… I don’t have any idea where I can go with him and be affordable. It’s a shitty feeing to say the least.
On the positive… the last few weeks has been completely refreshing. I’ve been able to finish most of my house related projects I’d been putting off for nearly a year, I’ve spent lots of time with Wrangler, and had plenty of time to see friends. One of mine came into town from North Carolina… under the old Menard schedule; it wouldn’t have been possible for me to see him… but being free from that, we were able to drink a few beers and chat until the sun came up. That’s something important in my life I’ve missed out on in the past few years. Yes, here and there it happens; but not to the level it should. I’m a single male in his mid 30’s… that’s the kind of thing I should do. It just doesn’t work out well when you got up at 430am and worked until 11pm. That’s been the biggest positive to come out of all this mess; getting some semblance of my life back. Yeah, gain lots of fear, lose lots of money, and kick your pride in the nuts; but you get some bits of your old life back… in the kind of way you want to live. That’s not really a surprise either, when you think about it.
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