well jacko got off. with little boys. and while im not quite sure whether he was guilty of it in this particular instance, this one becomes a head scratcher. you see. it becomes a practical problem of how to put away repeat sexual offenders. on the one hand it would be much easier if we just drug them out of the holes they lived in, and locked them up. on the other hand, we have to be legal about this. michael jackson is rich. he can afford better representation that id say any other sexual pervert could afford. and it worked. and while i do believe in the rule of law, and preserving the rights of those until proven guilty, beyond a reasonable doubt... which this jury could not find for. i have that feeling about him. that feeling where you go, "gee, this isnt how its supposed to end" i have no doubt in my mind that jackson believes in what he does. no doubt whats so ever that he cares for children. but he fits a pattern folks. he fits a very specific pattern of probable future sexual offenders. various early life pyscho-stigmatizers were appearant in this mans life, that in the general course of policework, would lead you to this mans door 30 years later, when boys end up missing and abused. and for his defense, jackson admits to us; "i sleep with young boys. i read them stories. i tuck them in. i give them hot milk." that was the defense. i do this to lots of boys. it look bad. but i dont believe that it constitutes criminal wrong doing. jackson didnt think so. but i would still be knocking on this assholes door when underoo's turn up missing. you see, for jackson, sex is not normal. for a man who's friends are chimpanzee's and liz taylor; for a man who owns a complex named after a fairy tale, a man who is so self conscious about his own image he parades in public in surgical masks.... nothing is normal. and for us. enticing young boys in the privacy of one's bedroom, is also not normal. sexual or otherwise. jackson is indeed guilty. guilty of our pitty. guilty of our despair. guilty of our dark fears. jackson is guilting of being perverse. but thats not a crime. thats a reality. and were left with the probably's, and the most likely's that jackson did, but that we'll never know much about. as far as hes concerned, it will be harder than ever to make something stick now, after this finding of fact in california circuit court. and i dont really know how else to express what i feel, aside from a let down of nothing.