Nameless.

Current Musical Selection: Danzig - Belly of the Beast

boredom. tired. work starts in a few hours now that i was bumped to pickup the first shift on saturday, and im not tired. im hoplessley lost in the 2nd/3rd shift realm. bah. such garbage. it would be nice to confine my life to one frame.

sometimes i surprise myself. words are something i dable with. never claimed to be good with them. never claimed to understand them. but ive always tried to use them to convey meaning. something i always knew that i did well, but never came out to state it. after rereading Holstein's book on the Hebrew Bible, some of his arguments over the meanings and interpretations of the text, bring back memories of his class... more importantly, they drag out some things that are pretty good to remember when reading someone's work for meaning... he said that everything has meaning. everything means something. each morsel of information, each word, each syllable has a meaning and an order to it. you cant over look these things. people can write stories about a dog and a flower; but what makes the stories great, are the relationships of unwritten variety between the harmony of the natural state of affairs in the world. things beneath the surface that we struggle to understand. everything has meaning

all that meaning scares me. ive tried to use it. read back a ways to see what you can catch; because i know, that i specifically altered or left phrases the way i did to convey a certain meaning. sometimes the subject is stated; some times its not even obvious. but its there. reading for the unwritten is probably the only way to address half of what i write.

again, this could be a so-what post. this could be one of those times where everyone will run around commenting about how im talking about nothing; or how everything has alterier motives... how they should all take offense now, when they didnt before. maybe its just me confessing and washing my hands in the purity that is disclosure to the source. some of you will likely be amazed, and feel problematic to what ive written over the last year, once you know what to look for. but you wont. only i do. sometimes you might catch the thread that is waifting on the wind; but i doubt that any will ever grasp the hem of the garment that your thread has left. i say this because its been about a year since i... decided... shall we say, to disclose my thoughts to the web. in a few days, ill probably top off the tank with a few more things to round it out. but heres to posterity.

lastly; it is the power of the word that chills me. the speaker and its hidden meaning are something to keep in mind; but none of which is more important that the word its self. its timeliness, its useage, its syntax its character, and its flaws. someone managed to remind me of the power of the word. mine in particular. i was having a converstation with a friend of mine, it strayed to females, and as usual im sure i started talking more than i should about a subject i shouldnt, to an audience that doesnt care. he reminded me of something i told him a long time ago. id forgotten id said it, and it did catch me off guard. im still thinking it over. about how right i was then, and maybe how right it is now. but the word that came from my lips, to someones mind, returned once again. and i still enjoy the irony of them. read them again. enjoy them.

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PHOTOS OF THE NEW REGEIME!

yeah, because i love you all, my loyal viewing public... who, as best i cant tell, are still trickling in at over 15 uniques [and steady readers] durring the summer... down from the school year, but you know-- its still flatering. so for all of you; i will break with one of my rules and show you my face... for those that are both BOLD and DARING... pureists dont have to look.. its pictures of the new hairless wonder as someone called me on the phone tonight... enjoy.

pic numero uno
or if the link breaks: http://www.geocities.com/scott_r_alvarado/pics/cap_091.jpg

e la partena dos
or if the link breaks: http://www.geocities.com/scott_r_alvarado/pics/cap_093.jpg



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